Dear 2015…

beyourself-small

I hope everyone’s had a wonderful holiday season, and a fabulous start to the New Year :)

As for me, I took a break somewhere around November. A long-ish break to recoup, to re-energize, and to re-organize my thoughts – on life, on everything that had taken place in 2014, and on blogging.

In 2014, I decided to really give this blog my all.

With what little amount time I had each day (after a grueling 9.5 hour work day), I chiseled out a personal online identity of sorts, of my own. I had to make some tough decisions to axe out certain types of content that weren’t in line with my identity, while keeping those that are. I designed graphics and layouts, and selected and re-selected the most suitable WordPress theme – wordpress theme generously released for free by Anders Norén , (because I am afterall a designer with only a wee bit of coding knowhow). I painstakingly edited codes, and changed the designs again, and edited some more codes, and changed some more designs.

I began lugging my camera around with me wherever I went, determined to take the best photos, and write the most interesting articles. I started looking at life from a blogging persective – how should I cover this on my blog? Would this place have sufficient lighting for beautiful photos to be taken? Is there an intriguing story behind this, that I can tell to folks? – were just questions that I asked (and still do ask) myself on a daily basis.

And most importantly, I set out to blog, not for popularity or fame, or even for money, but because I wanted to achieve a goal that I’d set for myself – I wanted to tell stories, and reach out to people. Or even a single person, who’d stumbled upon this blog by accident, and decided to stay on. If even for several minutes. Because that’s several minutes in the life of someone who I would otherwise, never have been able to express ideas to, or share my experiences with.

But somewhere along the way, this changed. Somewhere along the way, I found myself swayed by little whispers of ‘what-ifs’.

“What if…instead of 400 readers each month, I had 40000000000?” “What if…I write my articles ‘this way’, instead of ‘that way’, so that more people will come to visit?” “What if…I started wearing these types of clothes, and putting on that sort of makeup, and started talking (or writing) like this, and behaving like that? Would I have MORE FOLLOWERS than KIM? (joking)”

And just like that, right here, was a wheel that I’d set spinning in motion, but somehow had spun so far out of control, that I’d fallen off.

And so this is my resolution for the brand new year of 2015.

I resolve, to build stronger foundations upon which the roots of this blog shall be planted into; the soil, fertilized with unshakable faith and nurtured with values that are nobody else’s, but my own.

I resolve, to tell the stories that I want to tell, from nobody else’s eyes but my own, and from nobody else’s lips but my own; to be borne not from a place of greed or envy, but from one of creativity, authenticity and inspiration.

And I resolve, that even when someone else’s destiny looks far more attractive, I will follow nobody’s destiny, but my own.

In 2015, I resolve, to be myself.

I’ve always scoffed at NY’s resolutions. Found them to be totally uncool, incredibly cliche and seemingly passe. But as I get older, I find myself thinking more and more about resolutions. Resolutions equate to goals to me, and as a person who’s fond of drifting from one spot to another (in every sense of the word, metaphorically and literally), goals provide structure and an anchor to my life.

Have you set any goals for 2015?

2 Comments

  • 2 years ago

    you didn’t blog for so longggggg! 1.5 months! please blog more and take more pretty pictures! :)
    and erm, who is kim?

  • 2 years ago

    Thanks for being a diehard reader LOL *hugs*. Kim as in Kardashian ;)

Leave A Comment